Well i have been here a year now, been Padrones property real time for exactly a year and in that time there has been a lot of changes.
I have seen people come and go, some i miss and some not as much. I have watched Him battle with His desicion about this lifestyle when He got involved with a vanilla person, wached the heartache He faced when she gave Him a choice, her or this life, He chose the life and i pray its not something He will ever regret. I have struggled and fought my way through some bad moments, some times when i wondered what the hell i was thinking of to give up everything for a dream, a 'fantasy' yet through it all we remained consistant and strong, the arguments not lasting long and each one giving us a clearer understanding of each other.
This life is not an easy one but it is a full one, it can and is great when it works, yet like all lifestyles it takes work and trust, faith and commitment and you can weather the storms, you can survive all that is thrown at you, you just need to know that this is what you both need/desire/want.
All too often you see this life depicted in a series of sex pictures, lol if only that was true, but its not, its about being committed, having trust, faith, hope, dreams,desires, needs, wants, and doing the dishes !!
If this is the life you truely want then i will support you, help you, guide you and encourage you - if this is a game to you then i will wish you well and hope you have fun. Everyone seeks different things from this lifestyle, for me it was an all or nothing deal, and i have it all and am so very happy
2 comments:
Congratulations! If I may - as a slave though - it probably warrants no admonishment... None the less, it is a firm step into the future.
Fantasy - is an interesting description of the life... I found my final choice to be more freeing... less fantasy - though people on the outside may view it differently. It just is.
Indeed it is about commitment... that is lost on so many - it is so good to see you and your Padrone like minded. Sometimes I feel so lonely but for a couple of friends that really understand me. But I chose this - it was the last decision I ever made, and I do not regret it.
I share happiness that you are here one year later and I am getting a chance to get to know you.
peace. alex
Thank you alex for your comment, it is true that this can be a lonely life, but it is still one that i would not change for anything - i am happy, He is happy and that is the main thing. In many ways this life is just like any other, we weather the storms and we take all that is thrown at us, we emerge stronger and wiser and more committed that before.
I too am glad that i am getting the chance to know you, all too often we get sucked into the fakes and wannabes and that can and does damage us a little bit each time, to meet a real person who understands and can be themselves is a very rare thing indeed.
i wish you happiness and pleasure in your life always
kitten
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