Online Fantasies

I read so much about how this life is different to a 'vanilla' life and how so many people crave to life this way and i will be the first to admit i am one of those people who has a vast mistrust of online subs/slaves Doms and Masters, having been 'bitten' a few times by people playing games my faith in those online has hit rock bottom and it takes a lot for me to actually believe what is being said.

I met my Master online and He would be the first to tell you how hard it was to get me to have faith,trust and belief in Him and in some ways its still that way, not with Him but with others He deals with.

I see so many times people saying this is the life they crave and want to live and then over time they try to manipulate things so that it is how THEY want it, the picket fence and candle lite dinner but as an added bonus some kinky sex thrown in as well. I do understand that some people are in a relationship that isn't what they want but i cannot understand why they are still in that relationship if it is that bad, surely it would be best for people who want to live this lifestyle and are currently in a vanilla relationship to actually leave that relationship BEFORE they start to seek the promised land ?

This lifestyle is not that much different from a vanilla one, we still get to cook and clean and go to work, we still get to have fun and do the things everyone else does, the main difference is the exchange of power, a sub or slave has less rights and say in how things are unless asked her opinion or view on something, and even then its no guarantee that it will be listened to. Even the promise of lots and lots of kinky sex isn't true, sex is a bonus not a right and i should imagine from reading some of the blogs out there, a lot of people have sex no more or less frequently than anyone else does - lol and not all of it is kinky either !!!

I think people need to look long and hard at what they are REALLY looking for in this lifestyle, what is it that attracts them to it and once they have that answer they need to look at their life NOW and what is missing from it, its easy to want something you don't have but when you get it, it is not what you thought it was in the first place. I find that those who are 'dabbling' with this online are doing so because they are bored, they want something extra and this seems to be the perfect spice to zest up their lives but what they fail to realize is that they are affecting other peoples lives and that is when things stop being a game.

Everyone can say this is the life they have always needed to live and this is what they dream of but if thats the case why are they still in a relationship that bores them, that is going no where and has no appeal to them? I don't know, maybe i am so jaded by all the things i see online, the games and the pretenses, all the people who say they are something and it turns out they are not that i am too distrustful but if thats the case then ok i will admit that, but i am the one who is not going to get hurt anymore, because regardless of how much you try not to each time an online person disappoints you or hurts you a little bit more of your faith is chipped away till you really have none left