Sorting things out

Kitten is going to visit Master soon, so she is getting ready for the most important trip of her life so far, and she is looking at the things she thinks she might need and lol that is so funny.

Ok first in the case goes the underwear, and first out of the case is the same underwear, kitten not allowed to wear panties and bra’s so she will only need one bra for emergencies * not sure what emergency will require a bra but kitten likes to be prepared.

Next in is a bikini, ok take that out, going to the nude beach so no bikini needed there, how about a kaftan, hhmmm might take that,its sheer and lightweight, might be allowed to use that once or twice. Now for pj’s .... ok kitten knows, out they come as well, not allowed to wear them either, kitten to sleep naked beside Master with no barriers to stop Him touching what He owns when He wants to.

Now what about clothes ? kitten has jeans, and long skirts to the floor, and a few pairs of shorts, kitten does not own a dress or a short skirt, and the shorts, well kitten has them but doesn’t wear them, ok kitten taking a skirt, and jeans and the shorts are her insentive, kitten wants to loose 1 stone, then she will wear the shorts, hold on no she won’t, kitten to be naked when she is at Masters house, so guess she will not need many clothes at all really,

Packing the case will be so easy, kitten almost ready, she has her toothbrush and she has her smile, her hopes and dreams shining in her eyes she is ready, all packed to see Master, after all, what else will she ever need ?

kittens Journey

kitten, as you may have gathered, is going to visit Master, this is the first step in her being with Master, if things work out then kitten is hopefully going to be His kitten perminantly, this in itself will being with it more problems, but those kitten will deal with as they arise, she will do as she always does, take them one at a time and work her way through them,

kitten is the type of person who needs structure, she needs a routine, a list, a focus, she is really no good without the routine and structure in her life. kitten makes lists of things that need to be done, and one by one she checks them off the list, Master being a bugger to kitten loves to throw things at her, different tasks, adding some things taking others away, all things to try to make kitten more flexible, to not rely on her routine and lists all the time, He wants kitten to be confident in what she does and while He doen't mind her havine a routine He also wants her to be able to be confident in moving away from the list occasionally without panicing, not worked yet but He is not giving up.

kitten has many fears and doubts, she loves to help people, she gives advice and she talks to them, she will always be there for those who need her but kitten has a problem with telling others what is on her mind, she has found that it is not worth it, as most of the time it is not listened to and when it is it is turned around so she is the one who is found wanting as it was, so kitten tends to write on her notepad, and she keeps things to herself, this is something Master hates, He wants kitten to go to Him always, and she tries, but there are times kittens thought mix together and she can't seperate them so she stays quiet, maybe too quiet, but the one thing kitten knows is when she is finally in Masters arms and she feels safe and loved and protected she knows that all the problems that lead to her being there will be overcome, she will not worry about others insecurities or their doubts and fears, that will be for them to deal with, all kitten will know is that she if finally where she needs to be, where she wants to be and where she wants to stay

kittens Getting Closer

This is like christmas to kitten, you know when you are waiting for something, you know it will eventually arrive, but you are too impatient, well that is kitten now, she is like a child waiting for a special day, and that day is moving slowly closer, but way, way to slow for her liking.

So what is kitten waiting for ? Well to be with Master of course, now kitten is not sure if He is actually as excited as kitten, she doubts it somehow as Master is a realist and He knows time will move at its own pace but damn it kitten wants to be there now !!

lol ok kitten is impatient, but she has waited for this time for ages, all the stumbling blocks, all the grief, all the tears, now it is going to be over, it is going to be kittens time, kittens time to finally be happy as she thinks she deserves to be.

kitten knows that being with Master will not change things for T/them, T/they will still have the same rules * possibly more as being r/t enables some rules to be added * and she knows that it will not all be plain sailing, kitten a realist, but the one thing she knows without a doubt is that finally she can serve Master fully, she can be His kitten in any way He desires * just hope He is not expecting fanny cradock as kitten still reading the cook books *

The count down continues, and time goes so slow ..............................

As the time draws closer

Time is a wonderful thing, it moves so fast, yet it moves so slow as well, confused ? Well kitten is, but guess thats nothing new to anyone really.

Kitten is on a count down, she is counting the days till she is with Master, its been a journey of discovery for her, she has had many ups and downs along the way, but strangely enough, not really with Master, with herself and with others, and in that she still has to figure things out.

kitten speaks to Master and the smile on her face lets kitten knows she is safe, that is one of Masters favorite sayings, He lets kitten know she can be human and she can have what He calls kitten strops but ultimatly she is safe with Him, and you know what ? Kitten believes Him 100%.

Now kitten not saying Master does not get the urge to strangle her at times, as she is sure He must do, hell at times kitten would like to strangle herself ( if that makes any more sense than the rest of this post ) but no matter what is said or done, He does not scream or shout at her, and kitten knows at times she has pushed and pushed, she wanted Him to scream, to shout, to call her names, she needed to try to justify the hurt she was feeling through other things, transfer it if you like to a hurt caused by one she loves, but He refused, He called it abusive behaviour and will not do that to kitten, instead He talks to her, He asks her questions, He makes her think, He makes her feel and more imporantly He protects her from herself, and that is a hard job for any one to take on.

So kittens count down has begun, the time draws closer and closer to when she will be with Him, yet at the same time it is going so slow, kitten wants to be there now, she wants to be with Him, and not just in a sexual way, but in a way that is hard to explan, she wants to know He is in the next room, or in he yard, she wants to feel His presence in the air, even when He is out, she needs to know that she is His, to feel His aura surrounding her when He walks out of the door, stupid really but kitten wants to close her eyes and picture His smile, hear His laugh and know that she caused that, and she does make Him laugh, not intentionally but with kitten thoughts and words that leave her mind and mouth before she really thinks about them. ( and may He never read this, but yes she would even give Him willingly the cuddle she owes Him, long story and way to complicated to explain but kitten learnt a lesson, NEVER trade with a Master unless it is an iron cast trade, still got a few reservations about the pillows though )

kitten counts, and the hours and days drag by, but soon, very soon Master, kitten will be there and that is the day she is living for