As the time draws closer

Time is a wonderful thing, it moves so fast, yet it moves so slow as well, confused ? Well kitten is, but guess thats nothing new to anyone really.

Kitten is on a count down, she is counting the days till she is with Master, its been a journey of discovery for her, she has had many ups and downs along the way, but strangely enough, not really with Master, with herself and with others, and in that she still has to figure things out.

kitten speaks to Master and the smile on her face lets kitten knows she is safe, that is one of Masters favorite sayings, He lets kitten know she can be human and she can have what He calls kitten strops but ultimatly she is safe with Him, and you know what ? Kitten believes Him 100%.

Now kitten not saying Master does not get the urge to strangle her at times, as she is sure He must do, hell at times kitten would like to strangle herself ( if that makes any more sense than the rest of this post ) but no matter what is said or done, He does not scream or shout at her, and kitten knows at times she has pushed and pushed, she wanted Him to scream, to shout, to call her names, she needed to try to justify the hurt she was feeling through other things, transfer it if you like to a hurt caused by one she loves, but He refused, He called it abusive behaviour and will not do that to kitten, instead He talks to her, He asks her questions, He makes her think, He makes her feel and more imporantly He protects her from herself, and that is a hard job for any one to take on.

So kittens count down has begun, the time draws closer and closer to when she will be with Him, yet at the same time it is going so slow, kitten wants to be there now, she wants to be with Him, and not just in a sexual way, but in a way that is hard to explan, she wants to know He is in the next room, or in he yard, she wants to feel His presence in the air, even when He is out, she needs to know that she is His, to feel His aura surrounding her when He walks out of the door, stupid really but kitten wants to close her eyes and picture His smile, hear His laugh and know that she caused that, and she does make Him laugh, not intentionally but with kitten thoughts and words that leave her mind and mouth before she really thinks about them. ( and may He never read this, but yes she would even give Him willingly the cuddle she owes Him, long story and way to complicated to explain but kitten learnt a lesson, NEVER trade with a Master unless it is an iron cast trade, still got a few reservations about the pillows though )

kitten counts, and the hours and days drag by, but soon, very soon Master, kitten will be there and that is the day she is living for