Kitten is not running

For the last few weeks things have been happening in kittens life that she did not like, people trying to manipulate her and as a result she closed her blogs and in one way closed herself off as well, but she has had enough now.

In a few weeks kitten will be where she belongs, with who she belongs and then things will either get better or worse, but if they get worse then kitten knows she has her Master and her sister beside her to help keep her focused on what is important and what is just others causing trouble.

kitten is fed up with running and this is the first step to stopping, hell you would think at kittens age she would be old enough and wise enough to be able to deal with what is going on but as was once said, " When you get knocked down enough times you learn to accept the view from the floor"
and kitten is used to that view, its only because Master refuses to let kitten accept it that she is trying to stand up once more, and its on shaky legs that she does so

kitten was given an article last night, and it summed her up to perfection, lol she was also told she was normal, not sure that bit was right but who knows, this is what kitten was sent

When introverts are stressed, they withdraw. They do this to recharge their batteries, not because they are neurotic. Introverts need time alone to bring order back into their inner world. They give energy to others and receive energy when alone.

Introverts need time alone to recharge their batteries. If denied time alone, you may become irritable and depressed.

Introverts fear failure in public and experience deep humiliation because of it. If the teacher grabs you for a demonstration of a new skill or your spouse puts you on the spot to put a bicycle together it can be extremely stressful.

• Introverts prefer to communicate in writing. They may feel exhausted by too much verbal communication that “isn’t going anywhere”. Introverts hate small talk.

• Introverts like to be prepared. If rushed to present a solution or opinion, they may be extremely uncomfortable and sometimes refuse to do so at all.

Introverts need to spend at least half their time alone for optimal good health

• Introverts love long trips, walks in nature and usually enjoy the company of animals. These activities restore their peace of mind and equilibrium.

• Introverts give energy when they are with people and need to be alone to recharge their batteries.

• Introverts need a room of their own with a door that closes.

• Introverts need to give themselves permission to communicate via email or in writing and to ignore a ringing phone (get a good answering machine).

• Decision making should take place without time pressure if possible. Introverts like to be prepared!

The scary thing is, can a slave be like this ? can she need the solitude to recharge and still be a slave ? The answer is yes she can with the right Master.

kitten was not always like this and who knows maybe she will not always be like this but at the moment this is how kitten is, as she said the view from the floor is acceptable to her, trouble is Master and her sister will not allow it and that is one battle kitten knows she will lose,

so for now kitten is back, she is here and she is fighting for herself, for her right to be Masters kitten and for her need to be His,

What is a Master ?

last night Master had kitten crying,,,, with laughter and it was something kitten never realised she needed, it lifted her in a way she has not felt in ages, all the turmoil in her head was temporarily forgotten and she was hurting with laughter * seems Master thinks kitten talks funny, like she says eetch instead of itch, and no matter how kitten tried, she could not say it right, but that could be because of the laughter.

How did Master know that kitten was down ? kitten never told Him, she never said a word, but He was so funny last night, lol kitten got banned from laughing at one stage as her belly was hurting and her tears were running down her face. How can one person know His slaves moods better than she does ? It was weird yet at the same time something kitten is learning to trust about Master, no matter what she says or doesn’t say, He knows kitten better than she knows herself at times, and that is scary yet at the same time a huge relief.

Kitten has a hard time talking about things she doesn’t want to bring to the front of her mind, this is an ongoing problem but for some reason Master wants to know, again this is hard, in previous M/s relationships kittens thoughts and feelings were always used against her, hence why she does not talk about them if she can avoid it * key phrase is kitten is fine thank You and then change the subject* This at times causes major problems, things build and kitten gets scared, and yes she is a whimp but that is how she is, if a person gets knocked down enough they learn to like the view from down there.

So last night was a welcome relief for kitten, for the first time in over a week kitten went to bed with a smile on her face and peace in her mind, it was a wonderful feeling and kitten learnt 5 things last night as well

#1Master is a terrible terrible tease

#2 Master now knows kitten hates spiders * this is not a good thing kitten is thinking

#3 Master knows kitten better than kitten does at times

#4 kitten needs to learn to speak properly * hhmmm wait till kitten starts talking cockney slang, that will baffle Master *

#5 Master is the One thing in kittens life that she can trust and believe in, last night proved that, no words spoken yet He knew, that is what being a Master is about, knowing those You own, helping them, guiding them and lifting them when they need it

Master may not have known what the problem was and to be honest kitten not sure He will ever be told * see the bit about talking about things * but last night certainly helped kitten more than He will ever know

Thank You Master, thank You for being You and for caring about kitten, kitten is one very lucky slave