Always

Some people say there is no such thing as Always, it does not exist, and they might be right, but if they are should you not live now, should you not take what chances of happiness that you can, let your hopes and dreams be a deciding factor in your quest for a life you deserve.

There might not be an always, but there is always a here and now, and that means more if you live life as you want to

Kittens Newest Love

kitten will admit that Master is expanding kittens knowledge. kitten thought she would hate this but it became her newest love. Hmmm makes kitten wonder what else she might love. Pillows? Cuddles? Kisses?




* just in case anyone thinks kitten has lost her mind, this post was not hers, it was sneeked in under the disguise of a Bon Jovi clip, and as kitten has said many times, life is never dull around Master but can she say, pillows.... cuddles..... kisses...
eerrrr can kitten say ...... no way batman ?? *

Have A Nice Day

It seems that some people want to live their life through others, they want to live through the things they say and do that impact on another's life, they try to copy, to imitate and in the end all they have are hollow dreams and no life of their own
kitten has a life, she has a life with Master and she is going to take that life with both hands and live it, she will take what it brings her and she will thrive on it, she will grow with it and she will LIVE so to those who object or question, who want to cause damage, all kitten will say is ... Have A Nice Day

kittens Life

This is for all the ones who are making comments and remarks about kitten being with Master, for all the ones who love nothing more than to say things and put doubts and questions in kittens mind, for all the ones who think they know better than kitten how she should live her life, who want her to walk away and not look back, no matter at what cost to her or her happiness, to all the people who think she is making a mistake and they know more that she does about Master having not ever spoken to Him at all, to all the ones who cause trouble and thrive on making kittens life hell, this is kittens present to you all.

Kittens Notepad

Well kitten is now at the magic two weeks mark, and time seems to be going so fast she is flying around doing everything she can but getting nothing accomplished, and that is a horrible feeling for someone who usually has her finger on the pulse, add to that some other things and at the moment kitten is not sure if she is standing up or sitting down, really wish she was with Master now, just so she knew that all would be alright, and that there would be nothing that anyone could do to her, nothing could touch her, and if it did Master would be there to instantly know something is wrong.

Kitten is now at the ‘ going through the motions’ stage, she is here but in body only, her mind is over loading and she can’t cope with it so it is better to shut that down and just move through the day, take her list and do what she has written on there, no more, no less, its no good trying to think about things as for some reason nothing is making sense, and those who read this know that kitten has a hard job telling what is bothering her, something she knows annoys Master but old habits die hardest and kitten is really not comfortable with that, hence why she writes, her notepad is her lifeline at times, all the things she thinks, feels, fears, worries about are in there, that is her confessional if you like, the place that does not judge her or make her feel worse, you should try it, its a great release at times.

Kitten went into an old ‘room’ on a friendship site yesterday, the first times in more months than she cares to count, she was asked to go by another as there was talk of closing it down and they were trying to build it up again before it was brought to kitten to close down * it is a room kittens previous Dom created and gave to kitten, so it is up to kitten to close the accounts down * It was really weird, as soon as kitten went in she was the ‘all singing and all dancing ‘kitten from before, she was a plastic person, can’t really explain but the kitten in that place is not the real kitten, she is someone who was invented to be everyones friend, to be the ‘go to ‘ person, to laugh and joke, to be the smart ass and the shoulder to cry on, the agony auntie and the advice column, and to some of them the cyber partner they have always been looking for, but that is not the real kitten, and maybe thats the problem, no one on them sites really want to know the real person behind the name, either that or kitten is getting to cynical and can see most of them for the pretenders/wannabes they really are.

Lol remind kitten to write in her note book, and to make these posts more entertaining, hhhmmm guess teasing Master is on the cards tonight, need a boost and if kitten works on her plan now she might, just might stand a chance, but its really hard when even His cats have a blinking Masters Handbook for Cats, so now she has a Master who has a Master cat, there is no hope really, but guess what cat........... this kitten has the place on the floor by the bed to curl up on, so your out of luck there !!!! kitten thinks being with Master 24/7 is going to be entertaining if nothing else, for B/both of U/us.

Kittens Relationship

kitten has had a relatively good week end, she has had some hassles with others, but unfortunately for them kitten doesn’t think they realise what they say to her she tells Master, and she knows that they are trying to drive a wedge between Master and kitten, just wish they would leave Him alone and just pick on kitten, and He on the other hand wishes they would just go to Him and leave kitten alone, He hates that they put thoughts into her head, especially as they have never spoken to Him or know Him in any way, but in less then 18 days they will all be proved wrong, and no doubt so will a few others as well.

Talking to Master over the last few days the picture has become clearer, there are many who question why Master wants kitten with Him and why kitten wants to be with Master, well hopefully those reading this will understand a bit better if kitten can try to explain some of those reasons.

Kitten wants Master to be her Master, she wants and needs Him to be her strength, her sanity at times, she wants Him to be the one to tell her what to do and when, to guide her and to teach her, and in return kitten wants to serve Him, to make Him happy, to cook and clean for Him and to make sure He is well, that all He needs for the upcoming day is taken care of, both physically and mentally where possible.

Kitten wants to be His friend, to be someone He can talk and laugh with, to be someone He is comfortable being around without feeling pressured into talking to her or playing with her, she wants to be someone He knows will listen when life is tough and things are not always as He wishes them to be. Kitten wants to be someone He can rely on to always be honest with Him, to have an opinion but know that in the end it will be His opinion that is the one that matters and counts, she wants Him to be able to trust her and know that what she says is the truth always.

Kitten is not looking for more than Master will give, she is looking to Master to be just that, her Master, she has no wish for Him to be her boyfriend, her significant other or her partner, she needs Master to be her Master in all ways.

Kitten also knows that the things she likes Master does as well, she likes the thought of Him taking a crop to her, to Him lifting her skirt to slap her ass, hell even typing this makes her tingle with anticipation, Master likes the idea that a word or a phrase will make her wet with desire, will make her nipples hard and ache to be bitten, He likes the idea that she craves to be tied and used by Him, and this also makes the M/s relationship stronger, the liking of things, the needing of things.

Every M/s relationship is different, and kitten knows that after the fun there needs to be something to hold it together, the more Master and kitten talk and the more they interact the stronger that bond becomes, yes kitten will go to the beach with Master, yes she will go to the movies if He wishes her to go with Him, and yeap she will go to parties and where ever He wishes her to, but that is the point, it will be what He wants when He wants and kitten is so happy about that

kittens thoughts

Nothing is as real as a dream. The world can change around you, but your dream will not. Responsibilities need not erase it. Duties need not obscure it. Because the dream is within you, no one can take it away.

~ Tom Clancy

Living is the constant adjustment of thought to life and life to thought in such a way that we are always growing, always experiencing new things in the old and old things in the new. Thus life is always new.

~ Thomas Merton