The other day i was talking to a friend and they asked me what i had done - i was confused. Done ? in what way ? What was she talking about ? Well it seems a 'mutal' friend had displayed cyber courage once more and written about certain things, in a veiled way of course and with inferred references instead of actually coming out and saying anything but those who know me and that person both know who she was reffering to.
What really surprised me was this person approached me and started talking to me, not the other way around, and this same person spent 40 minutes bad mouthing her former Master and blaming everything on Him and others but never themselves, in their minds they are totally blameless.
Not once in that whole 40 minutes did this person ask after my health, even knowing that i have been having tests for cancer, not once did the conversation go to anything except herself and her woes etc etc yet she posts she cannot talk to me !!!
I am really surprised at how different people view the same conversation and said as much to my Master, i will admit i was pissed, furious in fact as this person has cyber courage yet when talking to me is all sweetness and light, the two facedness is something i find really hard ti understand.
I know we are all self serving at times but come on, show some respect for others, if you have something to say at least have the courage of your beliefs and tell them to their face, i so wanted to go to this other person and tel them a few home truths, clear the air but i was forbidden to do so, and so i ended up having an agrument with Master which i am sure if they had known would have pleased them !
I know there are times i am opinionated and i shoot from the hip, if people do not like what i have to say that is fine, it is my view or opinion and if you ask me something i will tell you and not lie to you unlike some will, i am confident in my self and my position with my Master that i do not need validation from others yet i am still human and if attacked i will strike back when pushed into a corner, if you don't like that then i suggest you either talk to me and bitch and moan at me or you keep quiet, posting stuff across the internet only makes you look stupid * as this is proberbly making me look right now but i am fed up with people thinking they can take pot shots at me for no reason*
Cyber courage is a wonderful thing, it makes a person look pathetic, and from what i was told * i refuse to read what was written as then i really would be feeding into their delusions* this was a cyber post which achieved nothing except to make them look petty
Sunday 21 March 2010
Tuesday 16 March 2010
I am Submissive
I am submissive, i am an owned slave, i live 24/7 with my Master in a TPE relationship.
No matter what social site i am on the above sentance forms part of my profile, it is who and what i am, that does not change. So why then do 'new' people who interact with Master seem to think i am going to 'Dom' them as well ? To me it just shows the total lack of understanding of what a submissive is. I have no desire to be a switch, its not in my make up, i am submissive to my Master and i do as i am told sexually but at the same time He knows that i am not one to swop from being a sub to a dom just because some fruit loop online has desires to e 'taken' by a man and woman together.
All too often i see online people talk about how they want to be used and abused, monkey sex 24/7 and be dominated sexually, often times they get with a Master who already has a slave and seem to think that their wants and needs are the only thing that the Master is going to fulfill, to the point of Him telling those He already owns to do what the new one wants because she is new and learning. This is not how things should be, well in my opinion any way and as i am the one writing this its my opinion that counts.
A Master has an obligation to those He owns to make sure all her needs and desires are also being fulfilled, telling her to crawl around on all fours and bark does not make her a dog the same as telling her to take a flogger to a new one does not make her a switch, if she has no desire to do this and she finds it hard to actually comprehend then why would she be told to do something that goes against the grain of her very being ?
All too often when a new one comes along the facination of a new pussy, the golden hole is very strong for a Master and He seems to block out everything and everyone else out, this can and does cause damage to those already part of the 'family'. While i understand the need to spend more time with the new one to teach her and mentor her a good Master should also realise that the chances of her actually being 'real' and interested in this way of life are very slim once the initial sex fest has worn off, and if He is not careful then He will have caused irrepairable damage to the existing real slave He owns (owned). And to be fair its not always His fault, new ones coming into an existing relationship often feel they have to manipulate and monopolize the Masters time and attention because they feel inferior - this again leads to Him ignoring the basic needs of those already under His control.
A lot is said about subs and slaves not being able to handle poly and the arguments and jealousy that results from it but in my honest opinion not all Masters/Doms can handle it either, they do not understand that while they might be having fun with the new one all the time they are failing to attend to the others in the family, and that is where the problems start.
To be poly takes a certain quality in a person and that goes for ALL involved whether its a sub/slave or Master/Dom, there ae certain things that should not be overlooked as when things go pear shaped many will find themselves all alone with nowhere to turn.
No matter what social site i am on the above sentance forms part of my profile, it is who and what i am, that does not change. So why then do 'new' people who interact with Master seem to think i am going to 'Dom' them as well ? To me it just shows the total lack of understanding of what a submissive is. I have no desire to be a switch, its not in my make up, i am submissive to my Master and i do as i am told sexually but at the same time He knows that i am not one to swop from being a sub to a dom just because some fruit loop online has desires to e 'taken' by a man and woman together.
All too often i see online people talk about how they want to be used and abused, monkey sex 24/7 and be dominated sexually, often times they get with a Master who already has a slave and seem to think that their wants and needs are the only thing that the Master is going to fulfill, to the point of Him telling those He already owns to do what the new one wants because she is new and learning. This is not how things should be, well in my opinion any way and as i am the one writing this its my opinion that counts.
A Master has an obligation to those He owns to make sure all her needs and desires are also being fulfilled, telling her to crawl around on all fours and bark does not make her a dog the same as telling her to take a flogger to a new one does not make her a switch, if she has no desire to do this and she finds it hard to actually comprehend then why would she be told to do something that goes against the grain of her very being ?
All too often when a new one comes along the facination of a new pussy, the golden hole is very strong for a Master and He seems to block out everything and everyone else out, this can and does cause damage to those already part of the 'family'. While i understand the need to spend more time with the new one to teach her and mentor her a good Master should also realise that the chances of her actually being 'real' and interested in this way of life are very slim once the initial sex fest has worn off, and if He is not careful then He will have caused irrepairable damage to the existing real slave He owns (owned). And to be fair its not always His fault, new ones coming into an existing relationship often feel they have to manipulate and monopolize the Masters time and attention because they feel inferior - this again leads to Him ignoring the basic needs of those already under His control.
A lot is said about subs and slaves not being able to handle poly and the arguments and jealousy that results from it but in my honest opinion not all Masters/Doms can handle it either, they do not understand that while they might be having fun with the new one all the time they are failing to attend to the others in the family, and that is where the problems start.
To be poly takes a certain quality in a person and that goes for ALL involved whether its a sub/slave or Master/Dom, there ae certain things that should not be overlooked as when things go pear shaped many will find themselves all alone with nowhere to turn.
Saturday 6 March 2010
Finally Back
Well i survived, after a week away from home for personal reasons i am back and i will be the first to admit i am glad. It seems that in less than a year this is now home to me, its where i want to be in my life and for good or bad the week apart from Master has had its good points and its bad.
I am in a way glad for the separation, it has helped bring us to a place where we need to be, all to often things go 'stale' and a slave gets taken for granted, if they are always there then how can a Master really appreciate all that they do for them ? The same goes for a Master, if He is constantly looking out for His property then how can she know what to do when He is not there ?
There has been a lot going on in our lives this past month and that has added to stress on both parties, hell my face tells its own tale with my eyes being nearly swollen shut with stress related sties and its been painful to say the least. There comes a time when you need to step away, take a backward step to figure out where the hell you are going and the reasons why, i know i have hadmore than a few of those moment this past month and no matter how much Master says it will all be ok and things will be fine i could not see the wood for the trees surrounding me and that scared me, would it be ok ? would things be better than they have been this past few months ? is this really what Master wants or needs in His life ? So many questions and me without an answer to any of them, just having to cope as best i can and pray things work out so He is happy and if they do then at what cost to me and my happiness ?
Sometimes stepping back is the only option and sometimes it seems there is no way forward but with faith and trust in your Master you carry on and pray that things are this way now for the eventual better outcome, are things different now ? have they improved ? will there be happiness for all involved ? i don't really know at the moment all i can do is wait and hope
I am in a way glad for the separation, it has helped bring us to a place where we need to be, all to often things go 'stale' and a slave gets taken for granted, if they are always there then how can a Master really appreciate all that they do for them ? The same goes for a Master, if He is constantly looking out for His property then how can she know what to do when He is not there ?
There has been a lot going on in our lives this past month and that has added to stress on both parties, hell my face tells its own tale with my eyes being nearly swollen shut with stress related sties and its been painful to say the least. There comes a time when you need to step away, take a backward step to figure out where the hell you are going and the reasons why, i know i have hadmore than a few of those moment this past month and no matter how much Master says it will all be ok and things will be fine i could not see the wood for the trees surrounding me and that scared me, would it be ok ? would things be better than they have been this past few months ? is this really what Master wants or needs in His life ? So many questions and me without an answer to any of them, just having to cope as best i can and pray things work out so He is happy and if they do then at what cost to me and my happiness ?
Sometimes stepping back is the only option and sometimes it seems there is no way forward but with faith and trust in your Master you carry on and pray that things are this way now for the eventual better outcome, are things different now ? have they improved ? will there be happiness for all involved ? i don't really know at the moment all i can do is wait and hope
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