Life Changes

Three times today i have opened this blog to write something and each time exactly what i want/need to write has eluded me - i know what i want to say but the words fail to make sense and then each time i think of more and more to say on the subject so to be honest i am not sure if its a good idea for me to write anything.

Today has been a weird day- hell the whole week/month has been strange but the one thing that has stuck with me was Master telling me after i had been throwing question after question at Him was that things change, what was then doesn't mean to say it is now and the more i think about it the more it is ringing true.

Life has a way of moving forward whether we want it to or not, just because something was one way does not mean to say it will forever remain that way and nothing is ever as it was for very long, its just how things go. Sometimes we help things change and other times things change with out our help but always there is a consequence to that change, be it good or bad it is still there.

I know that some people think we are the masters of our own fate and in some ways that is true but at the same time a slave/sub's fate/destiny/life is at the mercy of her Master - He is the one who decides what will be and what will not be, we are not in control, we are like pieces on a checkers board, being moved around as and when it pleases. We can at times rebel and think we are in control but those are the times we really see who is in control, our actions have reactions - a Master will be the One to decide what those reactions are to be .

I told you this is not making much sense, yet to me it is, my life is in His hands, i am a piece of His life yet i am not the whole of His life, so when His life moves forward it stands to reason that my role in it will change, hence the comment about things changing. I have a choice, and yes i do have a choice, after all this is still my life, i can move forward with Him or try to hold Him back, i can resist the changes or i can embrace them, i can be a part of the future or try to hold Him in the past, but as i sit here i know that ultimatly the only choice i have to really make is whether i can serve Him more, serve Him better, help Him make His life more than it is because i know that as surely as the sun will rise in the morning that life will keep moving forward and i want to move forward with Him towards the new day