Safety Net

Kitten is confused, the need to fight is so strong within her its scary, try as she might the feelings keep coming to the forefront and its getting harder and harder to control them.

Kitten has had things in place when for times when she needs to run, always before she has managed to shut down, to close off from what is worrying her until she is able to deal with them, but now that is gone, she is not allowed to shut herself off, and that is not good, all the thoughts, fears and concerns are there and she can feel herself having a melt down.

The threats, or forth coming actualities as at the moment kitten really isn’t certain either way, of a forthcoming visit to her from another person she really doesn’t want to deal with, that needs to be closed away, that kitten needs to be able to move away from as she doesn’t like it, yet that has been taken away from her

Kitten is being taught different ways to deal with things, different ways that don’t involve shutting off or closing down, and that scares her, its not working, she needs to fight, she needs to scream, she needs to run, those she understands, those she has been doing for so very long, they are her safety net, damn kitten is so confused, just want to rest for awhile, if kitten can shut off, no one can hurt her, nothing can get to her, being open to others is not good, kitten is like a sponge, she soaks everyone elses feelings in and they just add to her thoughts, hell just shoot her now, get it over with