Moving Closer, Still Worried

Another day crossed off kittens diary, another day closer, and as each day ends and another starts, kitten knows that the time is getting nearer, nearer till she is with Master, but that in itself is something not without its own problems and worries, it is something kitten longs for, something she needs but at the same time it is something kitten has many doubts and concerns about

Kitten has been told by Master certain things, yet told by another other things, and if kitten is honest she herself has preconcieved ideas, now if you add all these things together, yeap kitten has got no clue any more !

kitten not really sure why but she hasn't spoken to Master for days now, talked talked, and even these last few days the im chat has been sparse and broken with long gaps of silence, again kitten knows Master is busy but as the time difference is something that affects kitten and not others, she really wishes that would be remembered at times, all kitten can come up with is the fact she and her 'sister' are once more banging heads, this is nothing new and kitten is really not surprised to be honest, and that is something kitten worries about as well when she goes to Master, kitten does not want Master in the middle of any falling outs between slaves but she has a feeling that is not going to be her choice,

kitten got a call last night, she would have liked to have spoken to Master about it but He was busy, and to be fair, what could He have done ? the same as kitten really and that is nothing, the only difference is kitten didn't let it affect her as badly as the previous calls have done, but in one way it has, kitten knows there are emails waiting for her, offlines and demands, and kitten being the chicken she is won't log into those accounts as then shewill sit and read them, and when she is on her own, no matter how hard she tries, the words used soak into her head, the things said, the way she is spoken about, all of these things play games with her, and kitten not strong enough to ignore them 100% so little bits kitten lets into her life.

Well all kitten can say is that she will be with Master soon, now all she has to do is get it in her head this is what He wants as well, kitten knows He says it is but after the weekend and the chat dropping off and no talking, and the calls and the fights and the everything, then kitten not so sure to be honest, and even if He wans kitten there, she knows there is at least one other who doesn't and as that one is closer to Master, well kitten got a feeling she will have a very bumpy road ahead before she is with Master, and even then it will not be smooth sailing she thinks, even being there in person will open a lot of doubts and fears, and not only for kitten