Well the days are counting down, finally kitten is at 21 days till she is with her Master, wow it seems like last week that kitten booked the ticket and now it is only 3 weeks away, is kitten excited ? Is she nervous ? Is she a bit worried ? well the answer is yes to all those and no doubt if kitten let herself think it would be yes to a few more, but at the same time kitten has a longing inside her that she knows will be satisfied, and nope not talking about sex either, she is talking about finally being able to live her life once more.
Some people are subs, some are slaves, some can take to this life so easily and others learn as they progress into it, kitten has learnt over the years, add that to what she feels and what she knows she needs to be happy then she knows that this is her life. Kitten knows there will be problems, the main of which is kittens attitude towards Master at times * think spoilt brat having a hissy fit* and this kitten thinks is because she is online and she has never known it before, and she knows Master is giving her a bit of slack * give her enough and she will hang herself with it* but tonight He said something that made kitten think............. He said “ Imagine you are here already and behave as you know you should “ wow that stopped her in her tracks, she knows she was behaving wrong and she hates that, but what can Master do to her ? Well He gave her a few suggestions, and none of which kitten liked.
That is the difference between real and online, well one of them, kitten has only known real and she will admit to having a few struggles with it, add to that the fact for once in her life * M/s life that is not work life * she has a ‘voice’ as such and she is allowed to express an opinion as long as it is done respectfully, she also has a Master who cares what she is thinking and feeling, again this is new and it scares kitten at times, she has always kept things to herself, she is the one who listens to others problems and doubts, no one has ever really listened to hers. Kitten has some freedom now, weird that, being owned and she has freedom, but she also thinks that she needs the structure as well, and that she will get when she is kneeling before Master. Kitten just hopes He has a large supply of valium, as she has a feeling kitten is going to drive Him nuts, but hopefully in a good way sometimes.
Kitten knows she needs the real time, she needs it to be happy, she needs to serve Master in person, all to often people online think that they are ‘living’ the lifestyle but it is nothing like reality, reality is where you find the sub inside yourself and that is where you learn to be happy,
Confused ? kitten is as well, all she knows is in 21 days she will be kneeling at Masters feet and she can’t wait
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