As the time for kitten to move to Master gets closer, so the questions and thoughts and fears mount, not fears of being with Him, that is not something that kitten worries too much about as she has always respected Him and knows He will not harm her intentionally, and intentionally is the word, there are times kitten has no doubt that He will hurt her, not physically but mentally as how can He not? Unless you know a person intimately, and then some more, know their very being then there is no way you can avoid hurting with a careless word or unthought-of phrase, but this kitten expects and knows will be dealt with when it arises.
Kittens concern is that she will be part of a Poly family, something she has been before and she knows the pit falls that can happen, and as in previous times, she will be a 24/7 live in slave, the good thing is Master has agreed that kitten can work, something kitten needs to do for her sanity and self esteem, having always worked kitten does not deal with inactivity well, lol even at work kitten is always being told to sit down and stop for 5 minutes !
It is not for the company or interaction that kitten needs to work, she often goes days without leaving the house or talking to anyone except Master and that does not bother her, kitten believe it or not is a solitary person, having been hurt by others in the past and not so distant pass, lies told and things not said or denied have made kitten wary of others, she has no wish to open herself to others any more, and she is not sure if that is something Master will allow, but it is something kitten wishes, being part of a poly family leaves kitten to open and she is not able to deal with that at this time, well she might be able but to be honest she has no wish to deal with it. Always before she has helped others in the family, taken a step back to let them have time when they seemed to be faltering, now she sees that her actions are not reciprocated, and while she never did it for that reason it is something she thinks is part of being a family is about.
A poly family is unlike other families, there should be a feeling of bonding with others and not a feeling of competition, it is not about me me me as in the case of children, it should always be about Master, Master Master and until that is THE focus of all concerned in the family tension and unrest will prevail. We all value the time Master spends with us, but by comparing what one gets as opposed to what you yourself receive will only make feelings of resentment grow, if Master spanks one and not another, so what ! If Master talks more on Monday to one than another Big Deal, people in a poly relationship need to be grateful for what they receive, and by doing stupid things, playing childish games, lying, moaning to others about your life and how it is not fair and in effect making life difficult for others is not a way to stay in a poly family with any happiness, Poly is not for everyone, many think it is but when reality sets in they realise that the green jealousy monster is the over riding emotion, and if you never admit that to yourself then you will never find true happiness.
A M/s relationship comes in many forms, poly is one of them
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